Pondering Amidst the Moments

Thailand! A beautiful place that all wishes to be and I knew I would be too... The city lights brightening the night, and rest all in click of a hand...  Nice!!! 😯Well, pondering upon the boxes of memories, I found a file just letting me remember how I came here. 

Coming here was a difficult choice I made because I carried the dreams within me. So, leaving my family I came to pursue the dreams I had. I knew I had to, to have my family here along... Coming here to the new environment and trying to blend with the new people  was a new experience for me. It once made me to even ponder, how can I manage to live in this new place because the easiest way to blend is through communication which still was a barrier.  We didn't understand even a bit of language here. We tried to use translator and sometimes that too wasn't clear for the people here to understand. However we continued to live on... Because, we weren't here for vacation but to study and that helped us go on...

It's not just that I think a lot. Realising my life here, I have become a spectator gazing through the life of others, listening to what other have to say and laugh along when I feel its funny. I tried my best to be blended rather it made me realize, that it isn't my cup of tea. Then I shut down the mode from being sociable, and started a new phase to just stay in my room. I stayed all alone and calm my heart to peace and to ease my stay further, started to hangout with my mobile phone. What is not available in phone today when INTERNET connectivity is there and having a unlimited package further engages you so well. Watching movies, lots of series, and playing tiktoks was mostly what I did... But have never forgot my responsibility to keep up with my thesis works... I did complete it and that too before time. Now waiting for my journal to get accepted with my finger cross to subdue the fear. 

Whats next I know not now but I am sure, everythings gonna be fine... Because what I lost I learnt had taken all my bad omens away along.

>To be continued 

My Journey through Sojong Period

My Religious Fasting Journey ( 3rd Lunar Month- Saga Dawa)

Haven't I thought until now that I can be finally capable of doing it and completing it too. I believe this to be one of the greatest achievement of mine. This period in surface seemed quite achievable, but in reality it was the toughest for me though the time was just for 1400hrs per day until the new day starts and then we could take breakfast. My determination would sometimes be so low that I would think of nearly giving up, but with faith and good intention I made it through. 

The first day of the lunar month started with the prayer and the blessing from Rinpochhe . I remember, being a bit reluctant but my friend, who is so religious in nature called me again and again until I joined😊. Then after with the prostration along with some prayers and blessings, the mission started. I indeed promised! to follow the instructions and carryout this mission till a month. I doubted myself 🤔 wondering, "will I make it"?

So, why did I take part then? 

This period was a time to check my patience. First few days, Oh My God! even If I do not take dinner nor I take any snacks after lunch, this period due to compulsion felt as if I would die without having to eat... The crazy flow of saliva felt through my mouth seeing any type of edible stuff and even those snacks, which I am not fond of eating. Forget about the temptation after seeing food, even without seeing and just a thought of food lingering in my head made me craze for food. I just felt like running down to "7 Eleven" and take a bite of all the snacks gluttonously.  Crazy huh! 😆

To come back to why I promised to pratice is purely because I thought this to be a good deed that can at least help me earn some good Karma.  The fact I believe that I am not good of doing other good deeds. So, this religious month was an auspicious and good starting for a journey through a religious fasting. The religious month of Saga- Dawa, is a very auspicious day for the Buddhist. It is the day where all the Buddhist  community comes together by practicing dharma in their own ways. They do prayers ( chant mantras), visit temples, light up butter-lamps, circumambulate the holy plays, go for pilgrimage, etc... 

So, though the journey was a bit tough for me, the satisfaction I felt is a greatest achievement. Therefore, looking forward to do the same next time possibly. 😊

Our COMPLACENCY can Borne Disaster

Life is only once and we believe to enjoy it to the fullest but do you think it is applicable today? No way, we can't. We are obliged to stay within our protective walls called Home so to protect ourselves. Moving out alike in past is risky and we don't want to risk our life. Indeed everyone wishes to go out, hangout with friends, some wants to escape their heavy hearted life, etc... But wishing to bring back that normal life is morphing and so we must be flexible to adapt the new normal despite the less contact interaction like in past. Imagine, how the people in southern parts of country or in the bordering areas are adapting. They have been locked at home which seems like ages. Those places looks so barren and dry. It seems as if the lushness of forest has all gone with no rustling of the trees with no chirping of the birds. 

We believe that we can overcome many things getting out. Cutoff this belief, it could have been true then. Today, its a techno world, be creative and innovative. There can be many other ways we can engage ourselves from dawn to dusk. Humans are incredible creator of many things and definitely, lots of ways can be created to Engage ourselves and if possible others too. 

Mine though not interesting it can be, but I do the following stuff  for engagement such as;

1. Prayers
2. Watch movies at home
3. Short walk
4. Update blog with my silly thoughts or vlog (YouTube)
5. Check on friends and families posts. Give them a like and love. Keep in touch
6. Watch some funny clips/ Tiktok
7. Watch inspirational videos: Jay Shetty and Dharman (Instagram)
8. Chat with my room mates over simple things making it humorous.
9. Cooking...

Likewise or based on your likes, you too can create varying interest to engage but please no negative stuffs. In a way, we become a savior of our own lives and our friends and families too. Since going out is risky, controlling with new engagement can be fun sometimes. Otherwise, we will be responsible in destroying our lives because this disease isn't a seasonal flu instead a deadliest virus, which is mutating to more dangerous and threatening our lives. Be updated about it and prepare yourselves to how you  can fight with it. Wear mask with bullet proof to even the tiniest particle of dust, carry hand sanitizer (best to wash the hands regularly) and maintain physical distancing. 

Let us not act complacent because this unseen enemy has reached everywhere now, and it has not yet been possible to eradicate. Believe in the Unity of Adherence to the Protocol system for this is the only path we can protect ourselves, our nation and the world at large. 

Take Care and Stay Safe... Build you Immune system...

My Inspirational Hero: My King

 

The sun rays falls so strong

And walking beneath is

The one we truly believe,

His Majesty…Yes, our King

In the scorching sun exploring around…

Exploration it is,  not for his fun

But for people indeed and

To encourage the front liners

To further put the best they can.

The walk He passes are not easy as we thought

he comes across,  many insects bites,

the heat, that burns him so hard

and the rain wetting him, which drenches heavily.

All these for whom He does?

Not for himself, not for the personal gain

But for the safety and happiness of all

With the hope to stay united and defeat the infecting race.

 

For the unity and for the desperate ones

To  succeed together, He puts his best

Unlike others, no one could ever imagine

This is our king….Yes He's our King

 

He inspires me, and so does to many in the world

All hopes will surely come to be true

Because his strive and keeping us united

Will definitely defeat the world with Virus

 

It has no power to last long.

One day not so far, will end this

Coz we have the mighty sword

The faith of his Dynamic Leadership.

                                                                                                        -Desuup Pema Seldon

 

 

WIDENING My Route of EXPERIENCE

 Sitting relaxed in front of the fan, had me open my blog to share this different experience I am having. 16th Feb, 2021 I had my first flight from Paro (Bhutan) to Thailand. It was a goosebump trip for me but enjoyed the sky view of the mountains, rivers and other physical features of Earth🌍. It was a dream come true to be on flight in fact. Also what I had seen just in pics and google earth, was in front of me in real, which made me feel excited too. 😊

On landing, 😱 I nearly upset my tummy🤢. It was alike the experience of descending Ferries Wheel🎡. Furthermore, all those formalities in the airport before checking out added to my motion sickness. But I appreciated the humble nature of the staff who helped us to complete all the formalities. 

We were then headed to our quarantine hotel from the "Suvarnabhumi Airport" to "So Boutique". There my another first experience was staying alone in a hotel room. Since I like watching a lot of horror movies, my brain spotlighted the glimpse of all those scary creatures😖. So, I kept the TV On the whole night, to feel the warmth of having people around.  Next was the food. I liked it at first but my body didn't accept it and I was sick missing our Bhutanese cuisines. Tough thing was the communication, with the hotel staff asking for medicine and requesting for change in menu to vegetarian and requesting to avoid adding sugar and sause. The taste still feel fresh like a burp after a meal. The problem could have been either I wasn't clear to them or I didn't understand the way they spoke English in their accent. For first few days I was trying to do some workout but sickness lethargized me afterwards too. After reaching hotel, we had done the COVID test(PCR) for 2 times but it wasn't hard especially for me because being in Phuentsholing (known as high risk zone) and serving as a Desuup, I got chance to do the test at least 4 to 5 times. And being in hotel wasn't a boredom too because after a  week, we were given to meet for 1 hour everyday.

Then, on 3rd March, 2021 our Quarantine period got over and we checked out for the University (Rangsit International College). We came via Taxi and the view wasn't like a new place. I felt alike travelling to Siliguri, India. While travelling we realized, we got in the wrong university since we said Rangsit University, and there are many universities in Rangsit. Later, we realized our University has to be called as "Mo Rangsit". On reaching the campus, we were helped by our Bhutanese boys and girls. We went to the Faculty of Education to meet Ajarn Muay, who helped to process and complete the formalities of admission. 

Finally, we were sent to our Dormitory respectively and I got my room in the 11th floor. Luckily, there is an elevator. Otherwise, it would have been a very difficult experience to drag my body and climb up to 11th floor. 😆

P.S: Communicating is very difficult and to eat out and order a menu is a long time process except to index the displayed menu. Good luck... If u happen to visit too.

Rest of the experiences to be continued...

My 2020, Birthday

"My first Birthday as a Desuup".

Remembering my school days,  I realized that I  loved celebrating birthdays. Wondering how?  Nothing grand,  in the evening prior to my birthday,  i would run to shop to  buy chocolates. I would feel very happy when my classmates sang the Birthday song, while I distributed the candies. Reaching my my college days,  I wasn't fond of it and so haven't celebrated until now but this time on 14th October,  it was surprisingly a very great day for me. 

I was surrounded by so many unexpected but beautiful people, indeed it was a great privilege to have had celebrated in the presence of Dasho Dzongda,   Dasho SP, Major ST,  Lieut. Tandin and few of my Nyamros. What a coincidence it was. Thanks to Desuup Nyamro Palden for her cake, that i got this privilege. "You made my day wonderful,  dear".  And I would not forget to thank  Desuup Penpa,  "your Pizza was a on-time serving to all my guest of honor".  

I thought, my birthday ended well but didnt, it continued.  To my surprise,  Desuup Nyamros of PSA Night Patrolling Team wished me with a cake too.  OMG!  A feeling of closeness,  touched my heart. ♥ Thank you Nyamros,  I wouldn't forget all the love and supports you shower me. 

Was this the end??? 

No, because When i opened my Facebook, it was flooded with wonderful wishes and blessings from all my families and friends near & far.Thank u every one for remembering me making my birthday beautiful.

You All Made my Day🙏👍🤘🤘🤘

"My King, My Inspiration "

  On 5th Oct, visit of His Majesty to De-Suung Office was a blessing and an opportunity for all of us to be guided to the way forward.  We all were ecstaticized & it was a dream come true privilege to listen to his encouraging valuable wisdom. His appreciation to the Desuups was an honor for us. I personally felt on top of the world to be praised by Our Majesty. How His Majesty described Desuups still lingers in my mind, which has motivated me  to continue to work with perseverance and serve the best way i can. So, I pledge to remain committed and loyal to my king,  my country and my people.  I will serve and perform my duty with enthusiasm and prove to be dedicated inspite any hurdles may come my way. 

  The orange uniform has powerup my zeal. As always,  inspired me to continue my service till the time I am here,for I know and  that I serve not to please anyone but to serve My King. At the end this will be my highest achievement and a greatest satisfaction.

I have also realized that my service since February till date is nothing compare to what My King is going through working industrously for safety of people and Happiness of the country. I might have felt tired but his words feeds me with energy. During this time when everyone needs to be inside the doors for the safety,  He,  My King is out guarding and seeking every possibilities to shield the country from an unseen enemy.  I strongly believe in Him, and it is due to His effort that Solidarity pictures Bhutan in combating COVID 19. It has also reminded me,  I have pledged,  "I must not rest and i shall not". 

Kadrinnchhe Mewang Cho🙏

Call of Caution

Summer, the monsoon season is very hazardous especially in relation to natural disaster.  The flood,  lanslides,  lightning, and roadblocks losing connectivity are some of the problems. These are life threatening. It is always being urged by many people about the safeties and the importance of staying home more than going out these days.
However, despite repeated urges by different stakeholders, there were kids seen out and that too swimming in the river.

One of our Desuup Nyamro have shot the video from her balcony this afternoon (Upper Kabraytar) . Though the sight was far from her home,   the video clearly shows,  they were kids. This has made us important to keep track of our children. We must ask our children and have correct information before we send them out. It is better to enquire than to be sorry.
For that it has also become important to absorb in our mind on  keeping ourselves reminded about the demands of current situation, in terms of COVID-19 and the disaster related monsoon season. So,  please remain cautious and Stay Safe.

*The above message and  video is purely shared out of concern. 🙏🙏🙏

Positive Vibe- Happiness

“It's only after you've stepped outside your comfort zone that you begin to change, grow, and transform.”        -Unknown

Positivity in thoughts brings a lot of change in us and so will it to our surroundings. Indeed, I believe it to be a source of Happiness too. Don't think it as an inborn quality rather a great change u can adapt. Try it! u will never fail. I believe it to be pertinent to our life and should  everyone too.
In line to this,  believe in yourself. Life isn't an easy go. You may come across many hardships and some even would lower ur morality by demeaning you but these are impermanent and will go off soon.  Always enlighten yourself by staying positive. You must not let something grab a chance to affect you.  You aren't always heinous for everything and sometimes your innocence wont be comprehended. Believe that these things are infact guiding and directing you towards Success. After all,  all these hardships gives us an experiences filled with lessons.

"Don’t get discouraged. It is often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock."
                                                        -Unknown
"Finally,  don't end judging someone sooner nor instigate others to do the same. So,  COMMUNICATE first.... not with others but the one whom u doubted."   -Pessel

"May Happiness and Peace prevails always... "
Take care and stay safe.
                    

My First few days in MTC ♥

"Respect the Training.
  Honor the Commitment.
  Cherish the results."
                                     -Anonymous

"This is the beginning of anything I want", for I knew my capacity to endure and fight for a cause.

05/05/05
Saw my piece of writing saved as "My Diary" in my mobile Note and couldn't help, then to post it.  ✌ ☺

My Diary

18/01/2020
Gathered at Changlimithang parking lot to head towards MTC,  Tencholing. Felt the zeal in me to work very hard during my Training and then realized I have dozed off the whole time before reaching the destination except for a stop to relieve ourselves. ☺
Then reaching MTC,  we all gathered in the ground. Some had already reached. I remember we were asked to fall in and do some simple drills, "Kayjur,  Demten,  jog choed" ☺

By evening,  we got to know our Adjutant Lieutenant Tshewang Rinzin, Over all Incharge Lopen Dholay and Lopen. Gyembo, but couldn't catch up the names of most of Officers and Instructors. Hoped, I would slowly catch up their names. ☺✌
19/01/2020
Not much can I remember about this day but I think, had practiced some drills  and experienced the challenging punishments because it was our first time.
I got to know my platoon mates and since then they became my very close people, "Nyamros". Had it not been with my mates support, I wouldnt have completed.

I remember, morning Joggings and as soon our instructors would say " Gom Thung Nidhap Choed", my face would droop down.  This was what I really didn't like and hence Coz of this I always landed up in "Limping party" and we would burst out laughing when the appointed instructor would say,  "Langra party Jog Choed." 😂 😂 😂

20/01/2020
Done with my morning chores after waking up at 4:30am, we gathered in front of the dinning hall wearing our orange field dress at 5:30am. Practiced some drills and leaded to Tensuung Lhakhang to offer our prayers & drank the Holy water. Then headed for breakfast after gathering in front of the Dining Hall.

Dressed in Mufti, we again gathered infront of dining hall at about 8:30am and practiced some drills.  From there, headed towards basketball court and practiced some drills. Then we marched to MPH, which our  seniors shared that it was our 2nd Bedroom because inspite active listener, the powerful room would carry us to our sweetest dream. 😴☺

We had an audience with Lyonpos. He welcomed us, the 37th batch comprising of 126 Desuups and wished for our successful training. When the addressing was over, we gathered in the ground for photo session with Lyonpo and other distinguished guest. After that we headed to the area where some cultural programs of Tensuungs and their wives were presented.

Sumptuous lunch was served, meanwhile the solo and duet songs by the Magsaars continued. Before seeing off our Lyonpo,  we Desuups presented "Cham Chamma Cham" Dance. After an adieu, we were asked to gather in front of dining hall in field dress.

At about 2.30pm, we gathered in front of Ammunition storage. The instructor introduced us about the pistol called Glock-17. From each platoons, 3  sections  were formed and leaded to the outdoor classroom. We practically learnt how to use Glock 17 pistol comprising of, "how to fill in magzine, Hold,  Aim and shoot." We were then  dispersed to our Barracks after gathering in the WT ground.

At about 5.30pm again we gathered in front of dining hall and leaded to enjoy the cultural show of TAPT. After that,  we had an "Interaction program" within the platoons with respective OICs in casual dress.

The Day ended well,  with full of engagements and tired body.  However, I couldn't help myself then jotting down my well spent  day.

                           ☺ ☺ ☺ ☺ ☺ 
I remember planning to continue writing ... However, lack of time and tired body,  I couldn't. However all the Beautiful Memories are Treasured in my Heart along with my Nyamros. Miss you all....

Fight Against CoViD-19

"United we stand, divided we fall, together we are invincible."
We seldom follow this but the current situation demands it and every individuals' support is must. You just need to cooperate by staying home and being Safe and this can Save "You", "Me", the "society" and the "Nation" at large.

But sadly, these days people seems to have forgotten and taking CoViD-19 lightly. Lets not forget the case of Italy, the doctors who sacrificed their life and the various organization who are "staying out" to keep us all safe. I appreciate the people who are really much involved and concerned adhering to keeping safe by staying home,  maintaining physical distancing, using mask,  washing hands,  etc... but there are few who need to understand & cooperate.  This is not just meant for one but for all the citizens ranging from infant to old.

CoViD- 19 is very powerful but we must held high and "Chase together it with our mighty Roar". Well,  I can understand you are mentally distressed by the four corners of your walls.  Remember there are people,  suffering the worst.  At least we have food to eat and many other ways to fight the boredom. Moreover,  due to the Grace of Kenchosum and our almighty leaders they are giving us full support.  I would suggest,  please ask some of your friends abroad, "how are they and how are they being treated"? You wont be happy to hear it and will be disheartened for them.

Our country, despite having low economy calls for all the citizens with much concern by waving off their loans, keeping them quarantined and doing the CoViD 19 test spending huge amount. They are taken goof care and recently with great concern, His majesty has instructed for "Psychological First  Aid" too,  which is for anyone feeling mentally distressed. However,  you can try out to calm yourself by
1. Doing things you enjoy.
2. Keeping your phones switched off,  which
     will u keep u away from over exposure
     increasing ur anxiety & stress.
3. Exercises

One recent news about PM, seems to have panicked the people about storage for 6 months.  But what I personally felt was to keep ourselves safe,  not having to go out much for shopping and breaking physical distancing, which is very unsafe. You can come out only if there's any need or any emergency.  Be always positive, because the present scenario demands it and if any negativity over rules then the country will not be responsible but ourselves for being the cause of our sufferings.
Nevertheless,  my dear fellow citizen, "Ask not what country can do for you,  but what You can fo for your country."

"Let Peace prevail and the Victory will be Ours" ✌ 

Vitamin Distribution to Elder Citizens(70+)

Bronze Medal: My 10th Year Achievement

"Achievement seems to be connected with action. Successful man and women keep moving. They make mistakes but they don't quit".     
                                    -Conrad Hilton
Today, on 13th of December, the medal recipients gathered in the Thromdey Office of Phuentsholing along with our Chief Guest the "Executive Secretary". When the Chief guest said, "this award of medal is the vision of our Majesty and it is to honor the hardship and effort of our service to Tsa-Wa-Sum", I really felt motivated and encouraged.
The recipients then received the medals in order from lifetime medal achievement to gold, silver,  and bronze respectively. When it was my turn, I heard the cheers and claps inside me, I was feeling happy and proud to receive my Bronze Medal because the medal signify my 10 years of dedication to my Profession.  Moreover it is the REWARD from our Majesty and as said by George Elliot, "The reward of one duty done is the power to fulfill another".

Therefore, I heartily thank our King for bringing up such a wonderful initiative to reward the Civil Servant. It was indeed a great honor,  to receive this medal.
After receiving, I wondered how far I came and how long I have to walk this path.  But whatever it is, I promise to our King, Country and people that I will always put my best towards building a better citizen for better future of our Nation by Dedicating Sincerely.
Nevertheless, how far we came cannot be possible alone. So, Thank You God, and then to all  my family,  friends,  relatives,  colleagues and  principals, "You all have Boosted Me to reach this Far" and need ur support henceforth too.

Thoughts of Current Demoralization

As said by someone, "the habit of passing the blame onto someone is the sign of being dependent on that Person". Well we know how much the world is dependent on Teachers.  That's why we see a lot of criticism and accusations on the Pay Rise of the Teachers. 

This is a very much hot discussion these days. As soon as you open your facebook,  "Teachers this,  teachers that" fills the page along with other criticism to the Government decision. I never thought our people being a people of religious country  would have such an excruciating grudge for Teachers.

Though, I understand some teachers have become teachers by chance but, at least they opted it which must be their karmic reward.  And this is a Nobel profession, which have to be Answered someday .

Teachers don't just teach, you know that clearly. I mean besides teaching, they are a doctor, a dancer, a singer, a counsellor, a barbar,  a cook,  security guard, and many more, though it differs a bit from one school to another.

You know what, we parents love our kids so much and don't feel like keeping them out of our sight. But we also do have a greater expectations from them. Simultaneously, we also want them to be a good humane and have a brighter future.

And we know that it is teachers, who can shape the life of our children. Otherwise we wouldn't send our children to school. In fact,  we trust our Teachers. Therefore, try to analyze . Why are you so much against teacher?  Why do u keep blaming them all the time?

Remember, how was our time? Compare!  Didn't the time change? How are children being treated today?  Moreover, our children today are getting exposed to lot of opportunities. Do u think only parents guiding them? NO, it is also our Teachers who help the kids to sieve the goods from the bads . Moreover,  they are the ones who stays more with our children not parents. Infact, do we parents have time for that? Come on, world has changed, you can see it and we have become more busy with gadgets than what is there and happening around us.

Therefore, it is our teachers who does that and they also tries to smoothen the childrens' path of  life...  They know that children need to be guided and supported regularly. These teachers risk their life with their family for others'.

So just comparing, blaming and demoralizing teachers will not work.  Boost them, help them in shaping our children, otherwise we will be the Loser. Children are our future and who builds those children?

Finally,  you cannot make your children to top by keeping the Teachers at the last. So be positive. Remember, what your teacher taught. Teachers will never teach u wrong! We would have been LOST, if it was not for our teachers.

Well, this piece is purely based on my experience as a student,  adult and as a teacher too. Lastly,  I pray PEACE PREVAILS everywhere. 🙏

Teachers Day

Early morning i  checked my mobile, saw some messages,  indeed more than regular.  I knew it would be the wishes coming from kids, families and relatives. Without going to washroom i sat for a while and read all the messages and thanked as well.

Some captions were touchy and catchy...i enjoyed infact. There were beautiful songs and some videos for Teachers day too. I was too much engrossed that by the time i looked at the clock, it was almost 7am.

So quickly went for a quick bath and started my morning chores. And completed everything by 8.30 and got ready for the school. 

When I reached the school, group of kids awaits teachers to put on the badges to welcome and wish the teachers. I tgen entered in and there were our teachers with bright and Gorgeous looks. Children were moving here n there in search of their respective teachers to present the gifts and to wish them too. Children then performed the wonderful dances and songs, which were worth listening, watching and appreciating. Everyone were enjoying and some were taking pictures and making videos, surely to upload in their instagram n facebook pages i thought.

Then i checked my facebook pages and saw lots of updates, wishing their teachers and the pictures and videos too sharing their joy on  teachers day...

I thought i should too share my joys but then my mobile got switched off and that was the end of my Teachers day.😊

Thank u for reading

Far Farther YET so Near to my HEART...

23rd April,2016
 The day we left home... lots of wishes and expectations started with the journey to meet u n be with u... But the fate I blame it coz every thing turned upside down cuz the nearer we were coming, further u went... U had left us by then when we were not even half the way. I know... I could have made it but my luck didn't favor me n i couldn't even had a last word with u... And its piercing me within when I think about it... I repent for not being a good daughter , a daughter of ur expectations... N I repent too for i wasn't able to make it to u... In life I have learnt many lessons now that love isn't everything. Rather, along with love life.... should be gifted with money n healthy life too... Then only life can be a easier for the one n the family n ME, i was not able to afford that too... Apa... U have been guiding me n now when u aren't here, I know not what to do. Whose gonna teach me n guide me now through my thick n my thin??? Will I be able to make it??? No, I can't ... I can't... Apa, I miss u every now n then ... Be it when m smiling, crying or working... Cuz I still can hear ur voice n turn to see...only to see n then realize that u r too far too hear ur voice yet in my heart from where u calling me ... How can I workout everything... Apa... Apa... I m really missing u... I wish I was a angel for u to help u out in everything... You brought me to this world n though, in gratification I gave u pains n pains... U suffered a lot I know but dull me knowingly i had no way to help u out though I knew ur problems... But I do appreciate ur guts n the perseverance u had showed n put in ur work to mould the life of the family smooth... A father like u can no children get, I know... So Apa, remembering u has become easy that I do it everyday cuz u r forever in my heart. But MISSING u is a pain, a heartache that never goes away... N sorry Apa, I m letting u down coz I never can be strong enough to accept that u are no longer here. ���☹ � �Please God hear my cry n my prayers... Let my father be in peace in death though� I love u Apa n will always do... I m sorry I let u down...���

Miss you Bhu- my son

My son. He is only 2 years and is too small to be away from parents.But i had to...

Dear son,         

Sorry my son for you have to be apart from us and it because my dear, Mama can't quit the job. My son, may be it is due to our karmic deed that you and i are staying away but don't worry my son i will always come to see you in weekends. Remember, mama  loves you a lot. 

I always feel guilty of keeping my son away but what to do?  Though we tried our best to search for the baby sitter, it was of no good result and landed up in keeping him away from us. But this does not mean, i am  worried about him because he is with my parents and it's for sure that he's doing good. However i am doing a sin by keeping the baby away from mother and moreover,he is  my heart and without it , it's painful. And may be he is too feeling the same pain.
Really i miss my son a lot and every time i come home, the house seems very quiet , which i am not used to  it. Thats why i come home lately from School. 
My son, when he was  here, he ran here and there calling us apa and ama requesting for this and that. Apart from disturbing us, he also loves watching animated movies like Chota bheem, waybulu, teletubbies, Mr Bean and Mighty Raju. So,as soon as he wakes up, he wants us to put on the T.V and show him the cartoons he likes but sometimes lands up crying if none of the shows are shown and that used to make me irritated and annoyed but now, when he is not here, his absence is killing me. I regret for being rude to him...
Finally, the only thing i can  do now is keep on missing him and moreover I also must not stop searching a baby sitter. But I will also not miss the chance to meet him every weekend.

I Pray we be together...

Way to Sikkim

I hate travelling but land up travelling a lot. And last time on 17th september i left for SIkkim, which i intended not to but due to repeated calling of my heart i decided to go. It was because the God i worship resides there and yes, definitely he is "Dhodup Rinpochhe"




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so, when we were leaving for Sikkim, what a unfortunate it was because the taxi we hired was of no good condition and the driver gave no damn to it. We were 8 of us and the driver was the nosiest. He was driving with one hand and another was kept very busy with his mobile which he didn't give any rest. he also was stopping time and again making us nausea. the most hatest part was the taxi we were travelling in broke off after crossing Baghpul. the reason was stiring had broken and the tyre was bubbling.

hence we land up stopping there but due to grace of God we were lucky to get another taxi and 8 of us were adjusted in it. altogether there were 21 people including driver.

really we are very thankful to that driver who reached us there to Sikkim. however it is sad to know the driver there donot hesitate carrying more than the required number of passengers. Also the driver earlier was driving and talking in the phone too which is also not allowed. And when i compare it with our country, i  feel very proud because i haven't met any driver yet going against the law. Hence i would like to THUMPS UP! to those following the laws strictly because its for our own good and other too.

And after reaching to Sikkim, every thing went smoothly but due to reaching lately i had to extend my casual leave from 2days  to 3days. But i regret not because i have the blessing of my God  and  he will therefore make every thing  go well and  also i am always sure that He is always there for me...

What I do...

Kamji Middle Secondary School lies in between the highway of Phuentsholing and Gedu. It falls under Chhukha Dzongkhag and had been one amongst the best school, where every parents try to seek admission. But I just want to share some of the responsibilities I have been appointed for being a part of the school, viz; 1. Staff secretary

                                                 2. Photography Incharge       

                                                 3. Health Incharge

To speak about these responsibilities:

1.      Staff secretary: to co-ordinate the meeting and keep the minutes of meeting, arrange the gatherings by sending notices, any collection of money especially from Teachers, and maintain the cleanliness of the staff room.

2.      Photography club Incharge: I started this club in 2011 with my camera mainly to generate fund to add the fund for the student support service but before that I bought a camera (for the school) after generating a good amount. The students of my club helps me in snapping photos but before that I give some basic information on how to use(browsed from the net) and also teach them to make some simple frames. Since then I have been the club’s incharge.

3.      Health incharge:  since 2012 I have been the incharge and we are two i.e., for boys and girls as our school is boarding school. As far as possible I tried to seek help from various colleagues and other friend on how to have a healthy school. And I have tried my best my conducting health session for girls and the smaller kid on various important issues or topics.  So, today (4^th September,2012) I conducted a health session  to smaller kids (class PP- V) to create awareness on nutritional deficiency stressing more on the following:

i.                    Ill effects of Junk foods

ii.                  Healthy food habit

iii.                Hand washing and maintaining the cleanliness

iv.                Usage of toilets

v.                  Boiled water.

Hence, the above mentioned are the responsibilities I have taken and I give my full effort to carry out the responsibilities successfully and try to initiate the activities related effectively with support of everyone in the school because I consider seeking help provides many good experiences.

EARN IT…

“Hard work is the key to success” and this is all known. So many people try their best for the success but if it’s credited to others then it’s like a Bhutanese saying, “La yak ghi bay, kay Bjob ghi chap”. Meaning the work is done by yak but it’s Bjobs who tells that it’s done by them. Likewise if the effort is put by someone and instead the credit goes to another then the perseverance in people will definitely be lost.

The success is very sweet and that is why people put their full effort even if they know that the route is going to be very rough and difficult. And never would these people want their effort to be the success of others instead. But I should say that there is no wrong in it if the others are benefiting due to someone’s effort and success.

Why do people work hard? For sure, it is to have a sweet reaping fruit considering being their success first. But no doubt that if the credit is gone to other than the person who initiated then it would lead to the sadness and dispiriting for the person concerned.

So, this is all I want to urge that if we want our life to be successful then we should put effort by ourselves than by trying to embezzle others effort because am sure the success from others will be of short term and that we would not like  or want to have.

“SO,  LET’S PUT WORK AND SHOW THAT WE DID IT TO EARN IT.”

I Love You....

I tried hard, hard to gain his love and affection but every time i tried my perseverance are to no avail. I trust you and love you and of all i worship you. I know, we are the blacksheep of the family causing problem every now and then, making family's life hard but speaking from heart, "I just try to seek some help and support with love you but land up pressurizing you".
Sometimes i wonder, " should i suicide" but i have my son and i love him a lot too. Though it is hard for me to do any hard things and of all i can't bear him saying, "every time one or the other is giving problem. I know not what have i done in my past generation. seems my suffering will stop only if I die".
Words so heart stricken, isn't it? But we deserve it cause he is tired. He can't carry the burden so very long.But these black sheep never stop adding fuel on fire.
I really do want to be a person of his happiness but instead sadness prevails in his life.
But now let me take an oath saying; "hence forth no more torture from my side nor will i also let others have him suffer and i promise I will try my Best, I SWEAR  BECAUSE  I LOVE YOU MY DAD....