Monday, September 26, 2022

Pondering Amidst the Moments

Thailand! A beautiful place that all wishes to be and I knew I would be too... The city lights brightening the night, and rest all in click of a hand...  Nice!!! 😯Well, pondering upon the boxes of memories, I found a file just letting me remember how I came here. 

Coming here was a difficult choice I made because I carried the dreams within me. So, leaving my family I came to pursue the dreams I had. I knew I had to, to have my family here along... Coming here to the new environment and trying to blend with the new people  was a new experience for me. It once made me to even ponder, how can I manage to live in this new place because the easiest way to blend is through communication which still was a barrier.  We didn't understand even a bit of language here. We tried to use translator and sometimes that too wasn't clear for the people here to understand. However we continued to live on... Because, we weren't here for vacation but to study and that helped us go on...

It's not just that I think a lot. Realising my life here, I have become a spectator gazing through the life of others, listening to what other have to say and laugh along when I feel its funny. I tried my best to be blended rather it made me realize, that it isn't my cup of tea. Then I shut down the mode from being sociable, and started a new phase to just stay in my room. I stayed all alone and calm my heart to peace and to ease my stay further, started to hangout with my mobile phone. What is not available in phone today when INTERNET connectivity is there and having a unlimited package further engages you so well. Watching movies, lots of series, and playing tiktoks was mostly what I did... But have never forgot my responsibility to keep up with my thesis works... I did complete it and that too before time. Now waiting for my journal to get accepted with my finger cross to subdue the fear. 

Whats next I know not now but I am sure, everythings gonna be fine... Because what I lost I learnt had taken all my bad omens away along.

>To be continued